Hope you all had a good weekend =) Mine was pretty good!
So quite a lot has gone on in my life since I last did a proper post like this, I’ve been wanting to talk about it for a while but haven’t, in fact the last time I wrote a post was the 13th, the day I got back from my mates house, everything was still pretty peachy then but it didn’t last too long =/
However I did forget to tell you guys that I now have two more beautiful babies in my life =D one is my baby cousin who was born on the 14th =D she was a week overdue but we are all glad she is finally here, she looks just like her dad but hopefully she will grow out of that 😛 and her name is Florence, I can’t wait to meet her, she is my first baby cousin in a long time and she is my aunt and uncles first grandchild =D
The second beautiful little girl in my life is called Charlotte, she is my new niece =D she was born on the 5th and was a day overdue =P she looks just like her older sister Ali so much it is kind of like they are the same baby! she literally is the spitting image of her and they are both gorgeous, me and Nick have yet to meet her though but hopefully we will be going round sometime this week =D
This is gonna be a hard one to write, but I shall persevere because this is about me and my life and maybe some day I will want to read back over this particular event =)
So recently things have been a bit hard between me and Nick, it is entirely my fault and a question that I have asked myself a lot recently is why when things are going good or life seems to be on track I always have to go and make things complicated, I always do it, I never see it coming though, it just sorta happens then things get beyond my control and messy and it sucks =/
Basically there is another guy in my life who I have been friends with for about 2 years give or take a few months, I started getting feelings for him and in the process I have pushed Nick awa, it’s probably been going on for about 4 months and I told Nick about 2 weeks ago, I feel like a horrible person, I’ve pushed him away and made both of us unhappy, we ended up breaking up which sucks but for now it is probably best while my feelings are all up in the air, I don’t wanna hurt him anymore than I already have…..
We have been trying to work things out between us cause we both want it to work, 6 years is a lot to walk away from especially when we both still love each other =) we are still broken up but seeing each other, which is a fairly good arrangement for now but obviously things have to work themselves out one way or another =)
I hate how things are at the minute, it’s so confusing and miserable =/
So I started writing this post at the end of last week, I was still finding it really hard and was pretty upset about it all, it was hard to write then but I finished it off today =)
Things between us are now a little bit better, were both trying really hard to make it work and space is probably helping, its hard to argue about stuff if you’re not together =P
Heres hoping things will get back to normal with us! =) just have to keep positive and keep working at it!
I just have to keep reminding myself and Nick that these things happen, I’m only human and all I can do is make the right decision and try to put things right =)
Hope this hasn’t been too depressing for you all but I needed to get it out of my system =)
See you all in the next post!
P.S. We have now met our new niece! we saw her on Saturday and she is awesome and beautiful just like her big sister!!