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The Mummy Diaries: 32 Week Update!

So it’s week 32 already!! Not much has happened in the last two weeks, I haven’t had another midwife appointment yet, my next is at 34 weeks, that will be my last one with my current midwife before I move home and have to change 😒 I love my midwife she’s so nice and never makes me feel silly when I ask dumb questions, but needs must sadly, I’m sure my new midwife will be just as lovely! 

Sleeping has gotten a little more uncomfortable these past two weeks, I’ve had a stuffy nose since about 14 weeks and now that we are getting to hayfever season it just feels even worse, I also can’t sleep on my back anymore, it makes me lightheaded πŸ˜› so I’m stuck with sleeping on my sides which is not exactly comfortable! Ah well only 8 more weeks to go til my due date!

I use Ovia as my pregnancy app, I love all the lite tidbits of info it gives you, so now apparently baby weighs in at almost 4lbs and is roughly 18inches long!! Hes a perfect little person, just needs to put on a bit more chub! I had my baby shower on the 11th, it was overwhelming and great all at the same time, I got so much stuff it’s ridiculous and now I have to sort all of it out into size order! I will do a separate post about my baby shower with all the juicy details at some point this week! 

Here’s some pics from my Ovia app about baby πŸ‘ΆπŸ» 

Hopefully I don’t give birth to an Armadillo… 


Finding Out To Now (28 Weeks) πŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸΌ

So as my second trimester draws to a close I am finally on the home stretch! I am so excited, I have enjoyed being pregnant mostly but I can’t wait to finally meet our little dude! I have been imagining what he might look like and what his personality might be and I am just so ready to finally meet him! 

Right now though I’m going to write down how I’ve felt over these last two trimesters, I should probably have done it sooner when it was all clearer in my mind but hey ho I feel like I can remember it pretty well…

Trimester 1, I missed a fair few weeks of this trimester cause I had no idea I was pregnant! I got a positive test on the 20th of September last year, which really doesn’t seem that far away! That would have made me 7 +1 weeks pregnant, some people are lucky/unlucky (depending on how you look at it) and find out at like 1/2 weeks, I couldn’t handle that I’m too impatient, waiting til 12 weeks would have felt like a millennia! Anyway, the thing that was hardest for me during this trimester was the food aversions and constant nausea, literally everything I ate made me feel sick and when I wasn’t feeling sick I was constantly exhausted and had no appetite, so it wasn’t great but I muddled through on toast and really bland food! I started feeling baby move around 14 weeks which I understand is pretty early so I feel very lucky, it’s amazing how much reassurance it brings 😁 My 12 week scan was great, baby was upside down and full of life, it’s awesome seeing them for the first time, knowing that’s your baby and you’re going to meet them! Creating life is incredible to me, I just go about my life while he grows away inside me! 

Other than this my first trimester was pretty uneventful thankfully, the nausea slowly went away and towards the second trimester I started to feel much better which was a welcome relief!!

Trimester 2, this one has been pretty smooth sailing, in fact so much so I feel quite lucky! Pregnancy has been kind to me… so far! Still all of my morning sickness disappeared at the start of this trimester which was wonderful! All of my midwife appointments have gone great, baby is doing wonderfully, I’ve felt him lots more during this trimester, he likes to sit really low and kick my cervix 😝 which can be pretty painful sometimes! We did have a bit of a scare though towards the end of Jan, I spent my birthday in hospital due to stomach pains, had to get 2 steroid shots in my bum as they were worried I may be going into early labour, I didn’t fortunately, I was 25 weeks when that happened I think I handled it quite well, though I wasn’t keen on staying in hospital but it was for the best. I had my whooping cough injection last week, I hate injections, but it was alright, the worst thing was it made my arm feel bruised for about 3 days after! But I think that was the last of my injections for this pregnancy… maybe! The best thing by far about this trimester though was feeling him move all the time, I love it, both in the reassuring sense and because it’s a constant reminder that I’m going to be a mommy!

And so today I am 28 weeks, officially in the third trimester guys! 12 weeks to go, I am excited and nervous all at the same time, we have so much to do and so much to look forward to! 

Coming up this trimester I have a wonderful blood test! At least one that I am aware of, looking forward to that… not! I also have my baby shower in March which I am super excited for and by then I’ll only have 8 weeks left to go! Exciting times ahead!

A bump pic! Taken at 16 weeks, 19 weeks & 26 weeks!

My Instagram Obsession πŸ“·

Lately I am ADDICTED to Instagram, I pretty much post every day, I don’t know why, it’s just some crazy compulsion I have, I like to take pictures!

Pictures of food, like this!


Don’t ask why, just accept my addiction, embrace it… I have! πŸ˜€ I blame my OH for cooking such lovely photogenic food, yeah we will go with that, it’s his fault πŸ˜›
I think I probably spend as much time looking at Instagram as I do Facebook, but in all seriousness I think it is a great way for people to show off their photography skills, it’s also really fun to just scroll through and look at other people’s pictures! Kinda like on here it’s a lot of fun to just scroll through and read other people’s posts… πŸ™‚

Anyone else obsessed with the likes of Instagram/Pinterest?


Decisions πŸ€”

I have some big decisions to make in the next few weeks, one in particular is going to impact my life quite significantly the other not so much…

I think I’ll start by talking about the smaller of the two decisions, that being I want to post a lot about my pregnancy so far and updates on it in the future and then continue on after baby is here, kinda like a mommy blog, but, I don’t really want to change the overall theme of this blog, I like that I can just come on here a write about whatever I like, so I was thinking about starting a separate mommy blog, but I’m not sure, I don’t want to start it and then neglect this one or vice versa… so maybe I will just stick to writing on this one, start a mommy series maybe, who knows, maybe this blog will eventually evolve into a mommy blog! I guess it’s something I need to think about a bit more, read other people’s mommy blogs, get some ideas, I will say im not going to start a new one until im certain that is what I want to do.

So now onto the decision that is the important one, the one that will change my future…

My parents have offered to let myself and my OH move in with them on a short-term basis, 2 years max probably, with the intention that we save the money we are currently spending on rent and bills etc. and put it away to go towards buying our own house in the future, there are so many positives to taking them up on this offer that I am 100% for it, my OH however is not…
At the minute we live in a one bed flat in a built up area, on a main road where all of the schools are rubbish, my parents live in a reasonably nice area where schools are good, now I know school is a good five years away yet, but still this is something that bothers me. I want our son to go to a nice school in a nice area where he can go out and play with friends and I won’t have to worry about him, this is possible where my parents live, here though not so much. So that being one of the positives, here are the rest, in my eyes:

  • Free childcare
  • Family support
  • Save money
  • Better job prospects for me
  • OH can use some savings to learn to drive
  • Possibility for me to go back to college
  • I won’t be alone for 10 hours a day with a newborn

So yeah those are the positive how I see it, the biggest one for me being not being on my own all the time, here I am completely alone, family are a good 40 minutes away, I have no proper friends where I currently live so my days are spent inside on my own, which can be quite isolating and lonely now let alone when I’m taking care of a new baby and have no idea what im doing, at least if we move home I will have all of my family around me to help out and I won’t be alone all day every day. However, moving home would mean the OH would have to commute to work, which obviously costs money, but nowhere near as much as we are paying out currently, but, he doesn’t want to commute, he says he would rather pay the extra money for us to have our own space, but that could mean we end up struggling and nobody wants to do that if they can help it, he says that he will get a better paid job, but I know he enjoys his job where he works now and I don’t want him to move somewhere else and be unhappy, I’d rather he be happy and us move in with my parents for a while to get ourselves into a better financial position… I just need to find a way to convince him that it is our best option… Any suggestions?

2017 Relaunch!


So 2017 is finally here, time to start all that new year, new me rubbish that everyone always loses motivation for by the middle of Jan… Fortunately I have decided to stick with being the same old me that we all know and love! except this year I’m actually going to make a proper go at relaunching this blog… Can you believe it’s been 4 years this year since I started this!

Starting today I am going to aim to post twice a week (for now), Tuesdays and Fridays, I like this schedule cause it means I get a couple of days in between each post to think of new posts and as I occasionally suffer from bloggers block i definitely need this time and I definitely need to start off slow again and build myself back up, I need to rekindle my love for blogging, cause I really do love it!

Along with my new schedule I have updated my theme, changed my layout a little and added some new pics for my header bar! trying to make it feel a bit more fresh, hopefully all of this will help right, I mean if you fall out of love with something its best to start fresh… that’s my theory at least!

So here’s to 2017 being an awesome year and I will be back on Friday with my first post on the new schedule!! (Which is some pretty big news btw)

Abortion… My ExperienceΒ 

I understand this is a controversial subject for some, but for me I believe we all have a choice, a choice that I learnt can only be made by ourselves, a choice I never thought I would have to make and a choice that I want to share with you all. 

I wanted to post this a lot sooner but after the last one I’ve had a bit of an emotionally rough week so decided to stagger them a little, as I mentioned in my post When Tiny Feet Leave A Big Imprint… At the start of January I found out I was pregnant, roughly 9 weeks, this then led to one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

When we found out I think we were both pretty scared, we had no idea what was to come and I don’t think either of us ever really thought we would end up in a situation such as this, we made a doctors appointment, now both of us hate doctors, hospitals and everything to do with that sort of thing, my mom calls it white coat syndrome, seeing as I had absolutely no idea what to expect on my first appointment I decided to search online, we all know this is probably not a good idea because I ended up working myself up and on the day I was terrified, however, at the actual appointment all the doctor did was talk to us and ask us questions about what we were thinking of doing, no needle prodding, no blood tests, no cervical exams, just plain and simple questions, he was very kind and very helpful, and helped us along to the next step of the process, making an appointment at the BPAS Clinic.

After such a stress free trip to the doctors, my next appointment at the BPAS Clinic was less nerve wracking for both of us, it was though quite emotional, when we got there I signed in and they gave me a little booklet to read, it has all the information you could need about all the different types of procedure, and then we waited what felt like forever until they finally called me into a room on my own, as soon as I sat down in there I started crying, the lady who was in with me was lovely though, very kind and understanding, she explained that I was on my own now just so they could make sure I wasn’t being forced into anything by anyone, which of course I wasn’t, after about 15/20 minutes of her asking me questions, mainly about my medical history and such I went back out to Nick, we were then called through to another room where i was given a scan to determine exactly how far I was, I didn’t see the screen though sadly, I was then weighed, measured and had a finger prick blood test to determine my blood type so they would know wether to give me the anti-D injection or not, we then went home so I could think my decision over and make sure it was exactly what I wanted.

It took two weeks of a lot of back and forth for me before I figured the best thing to do would be to end the pregnancy, it was the right thing to do considering our current situation isn’t really suitable for raising a child, and so the logical option was abortion. I booked my appointment for the 6th of Feb, I had the surgical abortion which involves sucking the foetus out of the womb, I spent so much time on the Internet the week before looking for other people who had talked about their experience, I didn’t have much success and so I kind of went in blind, I knew what was going to happen during the procedure but I had no idea how the anaesthetic was going to make me feel or what was going to happen when they were prepping me for the procedure. My mom came with me to my appointment, I wanted both my mom and Nick but sadly you are only allowed one person with you and even then they’re not allowed to come through to recovery to you. When we got to the hospital I checked in and waited about 20 minutes, they then took me into a room where I had to sign a lot of paperwork, this was also my last chance to change my mind, I didn’t, the lady who was with me then gave me two tablets that I had to let dissolve under my tongue, she told me this was to soften my cervix and that they would probably give me belly ache, my God did they give me belly ache, I am fortunate enough that I don’t often suffer from period pains, to me this belly ache was like bad period pains, nothing I couldn’t handle but it wasn’t nice. I then waited about half an hour before they came to fetch me for surgery, I had to change into the nit shirt I had brought with me and they then took me onto the ward, I waited another 15 minutes, this wait was the worst party of all of it, I’m terrified of hospitals so I was incredibly nervous, the adrenaline kicked in and I started to feel like I was going to pass out or throw up, fortunately I didn’t and they then came to fetch me and take me down for surgery, once I got into theatre they injected drugs into my hand, this was probably the best part, the drugs took away all the nerves and I felt like I was floating, they wheeled me through and the last thing I remember was asking the nurse if the oxygen they were giving me would taste of anything, I went into theatre about 10 to 12 and by the next time I looked at the clock it was about 5 to 1, everything after coming round is a bit hazy, I do remember that I woke up crying, which is apparently normal because of the drugs. After it was all over I had to wait to be discharged and then I went home and slept.

Fortunately I think I was one of the lucky ones, the drugs didn’t make me feel sick or groggy, I felt perfectly normal, well as normal as I could feel I guess.

I spent a few days at home in Tamworth before I came back to Stafford, emotionally I was fine for a few days, but it hit me eventually and for the last week or so I’ve felt like crap, there’s nothing I want more than my baby back and I can’t, it is absolutely killing me and I can’t see how I can ever feel normal again, the worst part of this is because I’m at uni I have to carry on as normal, I have to put on a face and pretend like I’m ok, when in all honesty I’m not ok at all. I’ve had a few moments that Nick has helped me get through, he has been great, so supportive and I’m fine when I’m with him, it’s times when I’m on my own that it gets to me the most, some of my uni friends know and they’ve been very supportive to, but nothing can ever change what I did, nothing can bring my baby back, I have to do a test in a weeks time to make sure the abortion was successful, all of me is hoping that it failed and that my baby is still growing away inside me but I know that is highly unlikely, whatever the outcome of the test I think I’m going to be an emotional mess, but I will deal with it as I always do, soldier on and eventually I might come to terms with what has happened and be happy again, and one day I hope I get the chance to be a mom again, if I do I will cherish it because there is absolutely nothing I want more than that right now.

When Tiny Feet Leave A Big Imprint…

On the 3rd of January after a few weeks of feeling sick and sleepy I found out I was pregnant, it was a bit of a shock although I was sort of expecting it, I never actually thought it would ever happen to me, for some reason I had convinced myself that I’d probably never get pregnant, I don’t know why but that is how I felt, turned out I was completely wrong.

This then led to one of the single most hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make, I had the support of my family and Nick, they all said they would stand by me whatever decision I made…

I never thought I could get so emotionally attached to something I have yet to see, or feel, turns out that maternal instinct kicks in pretty quick, at least for me anyway, I didn’t realise just how much I was emotionally attached to this little thing growing inside me, til now, its been 7 days since I made the choice to terminate it, 7 of the most emotional days of my life since I was 16, I’ve not felt this upset about the loss of something since my Nan died, it took me years to properly get over that and now I’ve chose to put myself through this, but what gives me the right to create life and then end it?

I’m trying to keep it together, carry on like normal but its a struggle, I pray that by some miracle the surgeon missed it, that it survived, because all I want right now is to go back a week, change my decision and give this little one a chance, part of me has gone, part of me I can never get back and its killing me…

It will always be my first, even though i will never see the little feet that left such a big imprint on my life, i will never forget, hopefully one day I will get another chance at being a Mom and I will cherish it with everything I have, because every life has value.

Rollercoaster Journey…

It’s been 12 days since I last posted and man have they been a crazy and emotional 12 days, there have been ups and downs, mostly downs really but I won’t explain it all now, I have a couple of posts planned that will explain what’s been going on, I don’t want you to think these posts are designed to get sympathy, I wrote them because they will help me deal with what’s been going on, however if you do wish to contribute your opinion then you are more than welcome to.

In other news though I had a great birthday and Games Jam was also amazing, it was the last ever one at Stafford campus this year so that made it even more special, over summer the whole of the Stafford campus moves to Stoke so next Games Jam will be there, I’m looking forward to it already!

Also don’t forget tomorrow is Valentine’s Day! It will be mine and Nicks first one together and I’m looking forward to it, we have some plans which I will share with you tomorrow, it should be a great day, however I have no idea what to buy him! He likes chocolate so I think that is what I will go with πŸ˜€

I figured I would write this post so that the next one isn’t so out of the blue.

Anyway, best go get ready, got some shopping to do! 

Back in the game…

Sup guys! 

Happy 2016! 

Hope you all had a great new year, mine was lovely, got to spend it with Arran we spent the evening just chilling watching films, so it was a nice quiet night for us.

So 2016 is going to be a pretty big year for me, I graduate (hopefully) at the beginning of July and then one of my best friends gets married at the end of July, I will also be permanently moving to Stafford once I finish uni which will be awesome, me and Arran will be getting a little flat together, starting our lives together properly and I absolutely can’t wait!

I’m going to be 26 this month as well which is scary! 

You know what I have quite a lot to catch you all up on, so rather than trying to get through it all in this post I shall do lots of individual ones, I’m quite excited to share this stuff with you so keep your eyes peeled, I’ll be back next week with the first of many posts and I shall keep to this schedule for the foreseeable future, one post a week and then if I want to it gives me room to post more during the week as well. 

So, hope you all have a good week and I hope 2016 is going to be as exciting for you as it is for me, let me know some of your big news in the comments! 

See you next week,

Sarah x

Merry Christmas! & A Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas guys! It’s been months since I wrote a post, so I thought what better time to pick it back up than in the new year! So starting January 1st I will be posting once a week, even if it is just a post with a picture in it or a small amount of writing, I need to pick it back up cause I love writing, it’s so much fun πŸ˜€

Anyway, right now I’m sat on the train off to Bicester accompanied by a mango tango crush from Boost in Birmingham and six! Millie’s Cookies, cause I am a lovely girlfriend like that πŸ˜€ this journey with a boost just makes me think of summer and all my visits to Arran πŸ˜€ I can’t wait to see him again, it’s only been a few days but God I miss him when we’re not together.

Before we both came home for Christmas we had a little mini Christmas of our own in Stafford, we cooked dinner, had crackers, opened our gifts, it was great and I can’t wait to do it for real next year πŸ˜€

Our dinner! It tasted just as awesome as it looks πŸ˜€ 

Anyway, I hope you all had a great Christmas and I hope the new year is just as awesome! 

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year guys! 

And I’ll see you all on Jan 1st πŸ˜€

Sarah πŸ˜„