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The Mummy Diaries: HE’S HERE!!!

23 weeks ago…

I totally meant to do this update so long ago but having a fresh baby is hard work! Finding time to do things other than baby stuff has been difficult but I am absolutely loving being a mom!

So the details…

He was born weighing 7lb 11ozs via emergency c-section at 18:56 on the 14.05.17…

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Here he is almost 1 day old, having just had his first ever bath, he didn’t enjoy it very much but he loved being wrapped in his towel… he did wee in it though!!

My water broke at 2:30am on the Sunday morning, we went straight to the hospital as we were told to, we got there about 3:30am or there abouts, I checked into the assessment unit and then we never left the hospital until the Tuesday evening! There was meconium in my water so I had to be monitored and my blood pressure was high, these were the first problems really that I had, had my entire pregnancy, because of this I couldn’t come off the baby monitor only to go to the toilet, anyway, I was 3cm dilated by the time we got to the hospital so I got checked into the delivery suite, thankfully, I was totally worried they were going to send me home when we got to the hospital but I guess because of the meconium and my blood pressure I had to stay to be monitored.
Once I was on the delivery suite I laboured until about 6:30pm, I had gas and air and one shot of pethedine but unfortunately the pethedine just made me feel sleepy, contractions weren’t too painful it was just the pressure in my bum that I couldn’t stand, I did however do the majority of my labour without any medication, not because I was trying to be a hero, just it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting it to be! Around 6:30pm (I don’t remember exactly it could have been a bit earlier) his heart rate took a nose dive, I wasn’t progressing and was getting pretty tired and they called the doctor in and it was sort of a blurr from there, they came to the conclusion that he was stuck and we needed intervention to get him out, the anaesthetist then came in with a bunch of papers and went over everything with me, I signed the papers not having really absorbed anything he’d said and I was taken through to theatre, this all happened within about 5/10 minutes, it was so fast, the surgeon talked to me about trying to do a Ventouse and if that wasn’t possible it would be a C-Section, I remember asking if we could skip straight to the section… anyway, once I was in theatre they gave me a spinal block and oh my god it is amazing, within a couple of minutes I could no longer feel the contractions and my legs were getting all warm and tingly, it was wonderful! the surgeon then assessed me and decided that an Emergency C-Section was the only option, I felt nothing I was amazed, I’d read about people being able to feel pulling and pressure but I literally felt nothing, my mom came into theatre with me as Arran couldn’t, hes not good with things like that, I didn’t mind as long as I wasn’t in there on my own, infact I surprised myself really, I wasn’t scared in the slightest, I was completely calm, didn’t panic or cry just got on with it and did as I was told, super proud of myself! at 6:56pm my little boy was born and they then stapled me back together (yep staples… 17 of them!!) my mom went to recovery with Oscar and went and fetched Arran also, all 3 of them met me in recovery and I was there for about half an hour before they took me back to the ward, where I stayed for the next two days.
Arran went home that night and slept then came back the next day, I didn’t see the point in both of us being really tired! I didn’t sleep much, I just spent all night cuddling my little man, I was in awe and it all felt so surreal having this tiny little life depending on me but I was just so in love with him and obviously still am!
I breastfed him whilst in hospital and for a few days after we got home, but every step of the way was a struggle, I couldn’t get him to latch and and he would just get angry and scream the whole time, eventually after about maybe a week we just switched to formula, I felt guilty for the next week or two everytime he would have a bottle I felt like crying, it felt like I was letting my baby down, but at the same time he was happier and getting what he needed so I was also happier if that makes sense!

So yeah that is the story of Oscars arrival! It didn’t all go as expected but then at the same time I didn’t have a plan anyway, I was just going with the flow and my main focus was to get him here safely, which is what happened!

Here are some other pics of him!

Hopefully I will keep on top of updates from now on! The next one will be his 5 month update, which I will try and do in the next week or so!

Til next time!

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The Mummy Diaries: 39 Week Update!!

I’m still here, still waiting, still no baby!!

So 39 weeks, not a lot has happened this week really, he’s still pretty high up, making it super uncomfortable to sleep most nights and when he’s really in my ribs it makes even sitting painful, but hey only a few more weeks to go at most!

This week was Arran’s week of holiday, sadly though he has to go back to work today cause baby hasn’t shown up yet, however his paternity starts as soon as he is born, which is awesome cause it means he will get the full two weeks with him and not just a few days like I had feared, so now it’s just a case of waiting for him! Was hoping he would be a May 4th Star Wars baby but we well and truly missed that deadline!

I did have a nice little trip out with my friend this week, went to Lichfield for a few hours and got some lunch and had a little look around the shops, was nice to get out of the house for a bit and see her, I don’t plan on going out again now though til he is born, walking is getting painful and tiring so just plan on spending my time til he is here relaxing!

People keep asking if I’m fed up, or frustrated, I mean it would be nice if he had come early or if he came soon, but I’m not stressing about it, I don’t see the point, some people get really impatient and frustrated but it won’t help, might as well just relax and enjoy the last few days/weeks of feeling him move around inside me cause soon enough he will be here and probably screaming his head off!!
Same goes for labour, everyone keeps asking me if I’m scared or nervous but I’m not, the way I see it, loads of women have done it before me and loads will do it after me, it’s no big deal, I mean sure it is probably going to hurt and be tiring but that’s what pain meds are for and midwives, everything is there to help make it easier and more comfortable, so I’m just going to just take it as it comes and not stress out about it too much, I just really don’t see the point or how it will help me, calm is the way forwards!

On the name front we are a little closer to picking one I think, we have a few that we like but I think mostly we are just going to wait til he gets here and then decide, hopefully that way it will be easier… maybe… that or he’ll have no name for a few weeks!

Today is my due date! Happy Due Date to me, sadly though baby doesn’t appear to have gotten the invite, but nevermind he will be here soon!

The Mummy Diaries: 38 Week Update!!

38 Weeks! I honestly never envisioned going past 37 but here we are and with no signs of him showing his face anytime soon either, I guess he’s all warm and cosy in there!

I had a midwife appointment on the 25th, it was just your usual run of the mill appointment, nothing eventful happened, she took my blood pressure, checked my pee sample, felt for baby and listened to his heartbeat, everything is perfect so all is good on that front, he is also now 3/5ths engaged, which really doesn’t mean all that much cause he was the same 4 weeks ago and then decided to move out of my pelvis, which is annoying but ah well, the braxton hicks contractions have now all but stopped too so I am pretty positive this is going to be a long wait!

He is just as wriggly as ever which is wonderful, I really am going to miss feeling his little kicks inside of me when he’s finally here, but, I am so excited to meet him!
According to Ovia this week he is the same size as a Ukulele, weighs roughly 7lbs and is about 19 and a half inches long! lets hope he doesn’t get too much bigger than that! also apparently if he has hair it has a colour by now and his eye colour is also coming in! although I am thinking he will have lovely blue eyes because both me and Arran have blue eyes, I do hope he has lots of dark hair though, but thats not something you see very often, dark hair and blue eyes, but who knows we shall see, I’m sure he will look utterly adorable whatever he looks like!

Arran starts his paternity leave this week! I can’t wait, its going to be so nice to have him around for a whole 3 weeks, we just gotta hope that baby decides to show up in good time so that Arran gets to spend as much time with him as possible!

Here we go into 39 weeks! I might start taking bets on when he will arrive, feel free to leave your guess in the comments!

P.s. my appetite is out of control… please tell me this is a sign!

The Mummy Diaries: Choosing A Name…

We still haven’t picked a name… Infact our shortlist is not even short and keeps changing!

How? How do people pick names? It is such a huge decision and so hard knowing we have to pick something good and that it will be with him for the rest of his life!!

What if he doesn’t like it? what then!

I do know we don’t want to give him one of these trendy names that will date and sound silly when he’s 60 or when he’s working in a professional setting, we are definitely going to give him something traditional, but also not too old fashioned, though we do like some of the old fashioned names like Arthur, but we aren’t naming him Arthur.

We have at most 3 weeks til we meet him, I just hope that when we finally have him here with us we will be able to look at him and say he looks like a “insert name here” and all will be good!

Hopefully also people will stop asking us what we are going to name him soon, cause
1. we don’t know
2. even if we did we aren’t telling anyone because everyone has an opinion on every name and no doubt someones opinion would taint it for us!

Fingers crossed we think of something soon!!

The Mummy Diaries: 37 Week Update!!

So we finally made it, 37 weeks! I am officially classed as full term now and baby could come any day! Super excited doesn’t even come close to how I feel right now!

Last week I had my 36 week midwife appointment, everything is looking good, however, he had decided to move up out of my pelvis a bit instead of going further in, which was a little disappointing but ah well such is life right, can’t rush these things, he will come when he is good and ready! My next appointment will be tomorrow at 38 weeks, so fingers crossed for a bit of downward movement!!

According to my app Ovia, baby is the size of a tackle box at 37 weeks, weighs just over 6lbs and is about 19 inches tall! All of his organs are fully formed and he is totally ready to come into this world and meet us, hurry up dude!

I finally finished his bedroom this week and his new moses basket arrived as well, I will do a separate post with some pics of the nursery and his moses basket all set up, we also finished washing all of his clothes… he has so many clothes it is insane! ooh and I also finished packing his hospital bag and made a start on packing my own, though most of the stuff going into my bag is stuff that I am still using so will have to all be put in last minute!

Definitely starting to feel a lot more tired now, sleep hasn’t been easy, I tend to wake up loads of times in the night and then once I wake up it takes about an hour or so to get back to sleep, but it will all be worth it, I am definitely looking forward to being able to sleep somewhat normally again once he is here, the things you don’t appreciate like sleeping on your back instead of your side all the time are the things you miss the most I think, so I am really looking forward to being able to do that again and just generally have my body back!

Ooh, I almost forgot, we had a breastfeeding class on the 13th, it was pretty interesting, though the jury is still out on whether I will breast feed or formula, I think I will give it a try for sure for at least a week but my heart is not set on it being the only way I feed him, if I end up bottle feeding I won’t be disappointed, fed is best after all and as long as he is happy it doesn’t matter.

So yeah, I think that is all I have for this weeks update, I am thinking of doing weekly updates now until he arrives, so I guess my next one will be next Sunday/Monday for 38 weeks!

P.s. we still haven’t picked out a name!!!

Spring Has Sprung! 🌻

Well almost… 6 Days!

I can’t wait, I am so done with the cold weather now, I’m ready for a bit of sun and warmth, also my baby will hopefully be a May baby and I am super ready for him to be here except for I’m not actually ready, I have literally nothing prepared, but hey I got like 5 to 10 weeks til he could decide to make an appearance, plenty of time right…

So anyway who else is excited for spring?

One of my favourite things about Spring is flowers, specifically Sunflowers, I am pretty sure I have posted about my love of Sunflowers before, but man do I love them, especially giant ones, they are so satisfying and easy to grow!! I haven’t grown any in about 3/4 years but this year I have decided that seeing as I am moving back to my parents house I will grow some again! I planted 72 seeds (a bit excessive I know) on the 6th of March, 24 Giant Red ones, 24 Giant Yellow ones and 24 red/yellow Dwarf ones, so far 18 have started growing, it took them roughly 5 days to start sprouting and I am super excited to see how they look when they flower which should be around May/June time I think, though don’t quote me on that as it has been a long time since I’ve grown them!

There are loads of other great things about Spring, here are some of my favourites:

  • The smell of freshly cut grass
  • Baby animals (especially ducks)
  • Sunshine
  • Warmth
  • Flowers
  • Everywhere starts to look more alive again
  • Easter!!

Hayfever however is a bit of a downside to spring and summer but hey you gotta take the good with the bad right…

Here are some pics of my freshly sprouting baby Sunflowers for your viewing pleasure!

These are them when I first planted them on the 6th of March.

And these are them today on the 14th of March there are 18 in these pics, though it may be quite hard to see them all as the picture quality isn’t great.

If all of these Sunflowers grow I am going to have soo many! I tend to give them away to family and friends though when I grow loads like this because there is no way they would all fit in my parents garden!

Anyone else have a favourite plant to grow during Spring/Summer?

When Tiny Feet Leave A Big Imprint…

On the 3rd of January after a few weeks of feeling sick and sleepy I found out I was pregnant, it was a bit of a shock although I was sort of expecting it, I never actually thought it would ever happen to me, for some reason I had convinced myself that I’d probably never get pregnant, I don’t know why but that is how I felt, turned out I was completely wrong.

This then led to one of the single most hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make, I had the support of my family and Nick, they all said they would stand by me whatever decision I made…

I never thought I could get so emotionally attached to something I have yet to see, or feel, turns out that maternal instinct kicks in pretty quick, at least for me anyway, I didn’t realise just how much I was emotionally attached to this little thing growing inside me, til now, its been 7 days since I made the choice to terminate it, 7 of the most emotional days of my life since I was 16, I’ve not felt this upset about the loss of something since my Nan died, it took me years to properly get over that and now I’ve chose to put myself through this, but what gives me the right to create life and then end it?

I’m trying to keep it together, carry on like normal but its a struggle, I pray that by some miracle the surgeon missed it, that it survived, because all I want right now is to go back a week, change my decision and give this little one a chance, part of me has gone, part of me I can never get back and its killing me…

It will always be my first, even though i will never see the little feet that left such a big imprint on my life, i will never forget, hopefully one day I will get another chance at being a Mom and I will cherish it with everything I have, because every life has value.